The first thing I want to bring up is the transgender/Christian situation. I know, I'm starting off with a doozy.
And for anyone who does not care about the bible, the only way to continue civilization is to procreate and the way we procreate is for a man and a woman to be together and make babies, nature would have given another option if things were supposed to be another way. I'm not condemning anyone who doesn't fit this mold but there is truth in this.
The verse specifically referring to trans people I have heard much is Deuteronomy 22:5 which if you're a Christian who happens to be trans, I'm sure you've heard it so much you have it memorized,
"The woman shall not wear that which
pertaineth unto a man, neither shall a man
put on a woman's garment: for all that do so are
an abomination unto the LORD thy God."
Let's examine this deeper than the surface, it sounds very bad for someone who wears clothes of the opposite sex...which would be anyone who is trans at least before doing anything to transition. Taking a few things into consideration, this isn't as clear as it may seem for these reasons:
1. Most of what we learn and take from the old testament are principals, not laws. The fact that we don't condone stoning people shows that we take the principals of what is right and wrong but don't follow their specific actions. God absolutely wants us to glean truths from even things that we don't do the way they did at that time. That whole chapter has nothing to do with men dressing as women or women dressing as men, the chapter deals with responsibility.
The first verse says if you see your brother's ox, get it and bring it to him (paraphrasing, of course) and continuing on it talks about different responsibilities. Verse 22 teaches the principal that men should not pretend to be like woman or take on their roles to get out of their responsibilities, that's something we need to follow. It's not okay to do anything just to get out of your responsibility.
2. I know that whether you agree or not, I am a transgendered person just as much as you are [insert your gender here] and it may be a mental illness or it may be a birth defect or it may be because of someone's choices in my life when I was very young that shaped this, no matter what the cause is does not change the fact that it is very real and it's not going away.
The uncomfortable truth about my specific situation is that if I ignore or hide this, I will eventually kill myself. I'm not threatening or saying there is anything to worry about but this is the truth. This is true for many trans people who have dealt with this since long before they let anyone else know about it.
Now I'm saying all of this to show both sides because either side of this conversation believes there is no other side, that the opposition is just wrong and there's no conversation to be had. That is a terrible way to think and it's immature to shut down dialogue with someone who disagrees with you, at least till you hear them out.
Getting personal:
My decision to transition comes with the decision to refrain from relationships and all things sexual, it has not been an easy decision because it was something very important to me. I came to this decision because The bible says to abstain from all appearance of evil and like I mentioned first in this entry, homosexuality is a sin.
And while I could stand behind being with either gender (I could say that I'm a genetic man so being with women is okay or I could say because I transitioned, I can be with men and not care what others think), I do not think it would be right to be with men and I'm not interested in men anyway.
And the appearance of me as an identifying woman being with another woman would be the appearance of a lesbian relationship. And as I stated before, to shove this down anymore would spell certain doom for VJ so there is only one option for me.
This is a personal decision, I am not telling anyone else not to do what they feel is right as long as you acknowledge these truths that I have brought up. Your life and decisions are between you and God. My goal is not to tell anyone what to do or judge, it's simply to bring up something and let you make your choice based on facts and principals.
And the next thing is...drum roll...
I'm going to rant about a few things that I just need to rant about, I hope that's okay. It is? Awesome, you're the best.
I'm a cashier and I can't tell you how painfully annoying it is the way people regularly treat cashiers. Ignoring them, yelling, cursing at them, acting as though they don't know their job, speaking down to them and more.
I have a few instant rage buttons: when people see my hand out waiting for change and the customer drops it next to my hand on the counter, I want to say the most vile viscous things; when I say hello or something and they don't respond. Oooh man, I feel less than human and that sucks!
And HOW is it okay in our society to talk on the phone (in non extreme or emergency situations...I'm not a monster) while dealing with a cashier. We almost always have to speak to you to do our job so if you can...GET OFF YOUR F*&$%#G PHONE! Sorry for the language, it's been boiling up in me for a while.
One more thing, if a cashier t\asks you for a card for their store and you don't give it to them you cannot get angry when you don't get the store specific sales that come with said card. At least for the duration of your current visit when you do that, we hate you. I know...hate is a harsh word. We hate you. It goes away but it is real at that moment.
...I guess that's all. I get those things a lot and needed to vent, thanks for listening...er reading.
Now for the sappy part. I want to thank everyone for your
support and attention in a world where attention is a
hard thing to give out. My depression has been a terrible demon
and expressing myself on here has been life saving at times.
And having fans who read it and hopefully understand
any of my jumbled mess of thoughts...I thank you.
Prayers, good words and comments are always appreciated.
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