Today in the A.

 Exploring is one of my favorite things to do. I remember being a kid and always getting in trouble for roaming away from the group, but I never listened because I wanted to explore. I wanted to see things I had never seen before, I wanted to just see something I didn't see everyday.

   And I'm stuff that very way. Today I rode my bike around a town I just moved to and it was amazing seeing the beautiful sights of Menasha and Appleton. 

I rode my electric bike around and went so far my bike almost died, at the end I was laughing hard while watching my battery go WAYYY down.

   It was a good ride and since the day's not over I may go for another ride tonight, or tomorrow at the least. And the weird part is having no social media other than this right now. I'm learning just how addicted I am to social media. It was kinda nice just enjoying the ride without thinking about getting shots and holding my phone at angles to show the scenes around me. I just listened to music and let my eyes be my only social media. Weird, but good.

   I also am sadly really into one anime, ha ha ha. Call mean nerd but I just stumbled on the live action One Piece and I'm absolutely loving it! A lot of it is shot for shot with the original and other than a few voice changes, they're doing a pretty decent job with this. Not sure what I'm gonna watch after this, I'm watching the last episode available right now.

   I'm really trying to work on me and learn from my mistakes right now. I know that when I love people, I love them further than the boundaries of heaven or hell and I would do anything for them. I know I need to keep that care in check, there are times to let go and I'm not good at that part, when I feel like I'm losing people or things I try my hardest to hold on tight...even when sometimes I shouldn't. I'll be honest, I don't understand that at all but I'm trying hard to not take any of this for granted. 

   I also know that I will be much more deliberate with my words from now on. I hope anyone who knows me knows I would never say anything with intent to hurt the people I love the most. Not ever. And those who are going through things a million times worse than my worst...I would never ever consider myself on their level. I want to make my life's goal for others to realize what these heroes are going through. Nothing more. 

   Anyway, I haven't really been able to eat for a while now so I'm gonna force myself to put something in my stomach. And I'm gonna try to have a good night, maybe even smile. I feel alone, I hope someday to know the feeling of not being that.