So I just read a blog written by a little girl who passed away years ago. She was 14 when she wrote the blog and 16 when she passed away. The scary thing is just how positive and smart this little girl was. Reading about how she looked up yo her older sister, it made me think about the people in my life that I've looked up to or looked to in need and who was/is there.
I can think of many who have been there for me and haven't left me hangin, many friends who have sacrificed and still treated me like family. I, of course, think of Glenn, Dana and Mikey. They have been my backbone when I didn't have it in myself to go on. Glenn and Dana's kids, Mykaah, Tre and Reese have all been my angels, I mean that in a very real sense. Tre shows me constantly that friendship and family exist and that love is stronger than anything else. Mykaah...I cannot express how much she means to me. I can remember many times where just seeing her of hearing her voice made my world a better place or when I was on the edge of something very very bad when I saw her in her car seat or heard her run up and give me a big hug, that absolutely brings me back from any edge. And Reese, who I love to pieces. He's smart and I hope to be a part of him becoming a great person someday, I know he will be.
Steve, Debbie, Caleb and Emily have all played a part in me making it this far. Each has taken time or has done something that has helped make me a better person. Their kids, Gabby and Aria, have been blessings a lot. Kari and Josh accepted me instantly and let me in their lives, they treated me like I have always been "in" with them. And Dylan, Elijah and Liam are amazing people. They're all going to be great for this world, God is making sure of that.
Then there's Ruth who may not have given birth to me but she's my mom. I have never met a single person who is as giving and caring and loving...not even close. She's stronger than anyone I know and has more love than all of this world combined. I love her so so much, some nights I just think how do I get to be lucky enough to even know she exists, let alone that I can text her when I want to say I love you or thank you for being you.
Joe has been a great role model, I don't know if he knows but look up to him a lot. I am so proud of him for being who he is. The funny thing is he comes off kinda tough and grumpy sometimes but he has a heart of gold, a heart that he let God fix in a lot of ways.
Brandon, Ally, Nick, Mike R, Mikey R, Monica, Vicky, Jeff, Gwenn, Skyler, Kimberly, Kameryn, Bri, Brayden, Lexi, Johnny B, James B, Nicole S, Meghan, Charissa, Dori, Jake, Codi, LeeAnn, Nate, Shawna and about three thousand other people should be mentioned here have all been awesome friends/family.
There have been a few people who have meant a lot to me who I've dated that I wish I could let them know the good things I think of them, Renee, although things ended beyond just badly, showed me a lot of things and helped me in a lot of ways she'll never know. I see such potential in her and hope she succeeds in life.
There's another woman who years ago meant a lot to me and I hope the best for her, she and I went to college together and I knew then and I know now she's a great person who is currently making this world a better place (I don't think I'm stretching the truth when I say I'm pretty sure she is currently doing great things. I don't know for sure but I believe I'm right about her.)
And the ast person I want to mention is someone who probably doesn't even remember my name but she'll always be my first love. Tiffany will always have a piece of my heart. No matter what.